The worst person I ever met

this is how a room looks like

I can only say
SHIT HAPPENED!!! You are the worst person I ever met

-You can just leave the rubbish for days and make the whole apartment stink
-throw all your stuff in the living room
-wear your shoes in the house n even your room after you vacuum the living room
-you didn't wash your pot after using it n left it for days n said its not urs but when you are washing it you said you used that to cook sesame
-you cooked and spill until all over without cleaning it if i didn't put aluminum foil am i the one should clean it again?
-you said "I didn't asked u to wash it for me" after cisi washed your left over for days n asked you to wash it next time after using it
-you leave ur underwear on ppl's shampoo
-you throw cisi's stuff out on the first day u move in when cisi suppose to be in a room with you n u said u didn't touch anything
-you keep on stepping on people's bed n pillow with your legs n there is always dirty after you step on it
-you spill the water on the bed n just leave it
-you leave stain on cisi's new drawer even b4 she manage to had it set up
-you didn't wash bed sheet after the blood leak when you had period
-you even smoke in the room when you are the smoke that told the agent that you don't smoke
-you left the stain in the fridge,floor n basin with your leaking food and just throw your food container on the basin after i had clean the fridge n basin

-you sock the cloth in your oily chili oil food after i had wash all the clothes
-you use the cloth that ppl used to dry the dishes to take your instant noodle n wipe the spill
-you let the food flow into the basin n let it get stuck
-you make the toilet stink coz the floor and the cloth were always all wet after you shower
-you put washing power in the softener place after i had told you which is the place to put washing power for several times
-you leave your bed sheet outside, on the floor for days n we help you to pick it up
-you don't keep the iron board after ironing your clothes and let it block the door n the way to the kitchen n how many times did I help you to keep it
-you agree to borrow Cisi cleanser coz she had finish hers n you scold her for using it and said she always used your stuff n got no money to buy for herself after she used it
-you didn't close the eye drop water after using it n use others without asking and did they say anything?
-you dye your hair n leave stain on window, tower n others belonging did viola said anything?
-you common on cisi's n viola's clothing and did u think about their feelings?you even want viola to refund back her money when she just finish shopping and came back home
-you just wanna go back after you get all your stuff and leave others alone
-you selfish until i asked you n viola to check the mail box coz me n cisi don't have the key n the is a international package note that all of us didn't notice n ad due on the day before n you just said you don't have international mail but most of the time I pull the mail out from the mail box are all your letter
-you used up all the space in the room n leave one small spot for cisi n said you can't do much thing when you can just clean up all your stuff
-you didn't pay all the electric n water bill n I helped you to pay everything without saying anything
-you blame viola on using your thing but its actually hers but you just keep on saying people using your stuff
-you pack all your stuff and move and left all the rubbish with cisi
-you put your stuff which is from the floor on ppl's bed

we weren't that stingy
we share all our stuff together
did we asked you to cook for us when every time you eat what we cooked?
did we asked you to go buy your own eye drop?
did we count everything with you?
use your stuff after you used our?


you know why all this happened?coz you are selfish..you are selfish even to say that we used your thing once you gonna used ours once..you are selfish enough to just think about yourself but not others..when we are trying to make the place we stay more comfort n you just think about yourself n let us clean up all your shit
we actually thought that we are too over n felt bad for saying everything out all in once but the reaction that you give us really piss us off
we are stupid enough to pity you in the first place and stay with you,then treat you as a friend and talk to you nicely when you don't even listen a word of ours and think you got noting wrong and your are perfect enough when not only one or two of us think you shouldn't be like this but three of us..
and you actually make the one that think we should stay together with you, a patient and good temper person pissed off, the first time i see cisi get angry is because of you..the first argument between me n cisi is because of you as well
and you are pretty successful coz you let 3 person that take things easily n doesn't care about much get mad and can't stand it anymore

we didn't say anything about you to others coz we think its personal but you just have to over the limit
well..you had your choice..just dun regret about it..


ps./ dun really know a jamie?good!I'll let you remember forever

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All because of you♥

♥All because of you I felt love n happiness
You are different

I like the time when I always think of you
or when I see you
coz it bring my smile up

I like the time when you first said you miss me
it makes me felt touch

I like the time when you first send me kiss
it brightens up my day

I like the time we had steamboat together
I felt so warm
though I'm not at home
n u help me to clean everything up in the end even though u are you a bit hangover

somehow I got my dad's feeling from you
lol
big and strong enough to protect me
the secure and safe feeling that I can't get from others


ps./ hmm..valentines coming soon

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anti ciggy

I know I shouldn't be blogging at this kind of time but I just dunno where to release it
I hope cisi is here..I hope you tell me what's in your mind or maybe I'm the only one who think too much that I though something is in your mind and you ain't tell me?or maybe you just dun like it when I said something on ciggy?

I hate "SMOKE" it always end me up in a bad situation
Ok..tell me..what should I do?dun control you and let you smoke as much as you like izit?though i know you had cut down but its still something
I used to don't understand why ah soo dun quit smoking when he only smoke once a day and for the very first time I argue with him is about smoking..and now same shit happened again thought i know you can't explain why you still smoke even though you dun like the smell..I can't explain it either..

I dunno how to support you at the same time dun control you..I know whenever I start to say things that sound like controlling you in ciggy shit happened and no matter how many times I tried not to say anything I'll end up saying more in the end..though every time you just act normal but I felt that you ain't well good either..
The reason why I keep it always coz you dun control me on anything..you let me do whatever I want and I like..I know you just want me to be myself and be happy but am I too over to control you since you said you wanna cut down?I thought I can handle things different now but I can't..I'm still who I am..

Am I too serious?you dun even care and why should I?haiz~back to study!


ps./ thing gets better and shit will happened
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It's like a dream

You are like a dream to me
A nice guy that I had ever met
You didn't know that every single things that you did makes my heart melt
it might be noting for you but it means a lot to me like what you think about me as well

You see through me and let me know that there is still hope
You are gentle and caring
You are the first one to carry me for so long and using so many ways when my legs hurt (though its very funny in someway)
You are the first person who open the car door for me
You respect me and let me do anything that I want
You said noting at all even though sometimes you care but you just want me to be myself
You are sensitive enough to find out things that I dun even notice
Your heart beat is always fast saying that coz I'm beside you
You said you woke ip coz I wasn't beside you anymore when I left for my class the other day
You drive me to uni and pick me up after uni sometimes
You run all the way down to find me when you can just called and ask me to meet you up in the place
You always said I'm yours
You like to tease me always and think its funny when you want me to say things that I felt really hard
You cooked me dinner and very good in cooking
You have the ability to let me say out everything even you didn't force me to
You felt touchy when I said I'm showing you clearly all about me
You said you dun like to make things complicated and I became so simple now -.-

I'm always alert when I'm sleeping but when I'm with you I always sleep well, like a pig, sense noting and you just pull my blanket when I'm hot and cover it for me when I'm cold even though I didn't say anything but you just know how I feel
When I said I'm scare and insecure because we dunno each other much and we met each other in such a short time and I'm scare that I like you more and more..you said that's so touching that makes me felt so different

You attract me more and more
You make me like you more and more day by day
You let me felt so secure
You bring up my smile whenever I see you
You make me scare losing you more and more but I'm not affair now coz you are with me


ps./ thanks for everything
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before holidays

When to DFO with Cisi the other day after our apartment inspection..we definitely love the apartment but we still didn't get the call from the agent..well..we'll still be searching for move places since there's still time till end of jan or feb. We went max benner after that to had waffler n chocolate..just love it so much but getting fatter and fatter!!>.<..


These pix were taken after Aiko's last class..too bad we can get Heong Peah in the asian grocery anymore..=(..I hardly find it in Melbourne but like my mum said, I'm crazy!!it cost 4 to 5 times more expensive then malaysia..ok..I'll just stop carving for it and wait till I'm back to malaysia..=p

We were fooling around when we reach home..its was freezing but we still have fun doing lots of weird stuff on the street..haha..and I remember that was the night I rush for my assignment again..>.<..bad habit..
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New Year New Start?


I dun really think new year = new start or new life..if u wanna change u can just change it anytime..dun give yourself an excuse to wait till a new year to have a brand new you..

I'm here..still awake at 8.25am in the 1st of Jan 2011..
Just wanna post about the recent feeling that I'm having..
Having fun with a few guys that we met the other day in Eve during Christmas eve and things get pretty complicated between Cisi and her feeling..well..she will know what to do when its time

Back to that group of guys..they are pretty nice actually, and thanks to Cisi, I did had fun..
She didn't want me to stay at home since we are having holidays and I was arguing with my mum the other day again..well..i just dunno how can I face them but I think its time for me to concentrate on my studies..at least that's what my parents want and what I can do to let things get better I guess?

Cisi hope I can move on..and wanna help me up with the guy in the group..but I think just follow the flow..at least I dun feel like having any relationship for now..I dun think I let go for the previous want either but I did paying less effort and concern on him yet things always change when u try to start letting go..I stop texting him and he starts find me in fb..well..time shows everything..=)
will be posting christmas eve and new year eve or maybe the holidays on the next post soon!

ps./ legs gonna broken soon
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Try my best to find my way out


I'm trying my very best to get my own way out, too be happy
Noting is perfectly correct or wrong its just that how u gonna take things
I try to learnt from my lesson and not let myself having the same mistake again
I did regret..regret on being not optimized enough..regret on making a wrong decision, at least its not the right decision for now but I'm trying my best to let myself feels better..to not let myself regret once more..

I might be just running away from the problems and what should I do?I hate the once awhile emotional..I wanna play..wanna enjoy..wanna be happy..but everything turn out to be noting by just an action or a word..I hope I'm strong enough to face it but I dun have the confident..I know there's no hope between us since u said its not worth it and i'm not the one u r willing to give up for anything..and I suddenly recall back your ex that I met 2 years ago during CNY..how stupid is she having hope that is hopeless..and here I am..repeating her mistake..but at least I done my best to get what I want..if its not mean to be I'll let go when its time..


ps./ time can heal a broken heart but time can also broke a waiting heart
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Pixxx explain everything

Well here we are again waiting for tram to go to city for Aiko's dancing class

In the tram
having break
After class


We went DFO the other day..but forgot when izit already..well both of us did a good job coz we didn't get anything at all..hahaha..but pocket still having hole..hmm..should seriously look for a job..

another waiting
Yarra river
Addidas's fitting room
CK's fitting room (both of us like so cacat)
Doing bo bo stuff while waiting for the tram


My birthday present..thank to my dear en and dean..love it!!


Just reach home after dancing class on friday?



A very rare Saturday morning that I manage to get up for Zumba..haha..but I'm still sleepy..walk till where sleep till where..hahaha..but get to see thing that we dun usually see during weekdays..=)

the santa

Didn't know there's ppl playing chase on the road
Hmm..wonder what am I looking?but for sure I was sleeping while standing..==

ps./ once break up there's no more friendship
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cut it out


You can't do this anymore..face it..stop fooling yourself anymore..you know it well why u are being emotional recently..u know it well why your tears drop automatically even when you r day dreaming..you should had stop from the time he told u its not worth it..you shouldn't be hoping anything anymore after being refuse..face it!!!you are noting but shit!!the gift was just to make him feel better after receiving your present..wake up!!wake up and MOVE ON!!!
pls..pls..pls let go n start ur own life..everyday making ourself so tired..staying up till so late..telling yourself being optimized will help a lot but noting change..
you wanna talk to him so much but u dun even know how u should talk to him..always being so nervous..always consider him first..always try to find excuse for him..HE AIN'T YOUR MAN!!
"HE's NOT THE MAN!"..just keep it in mind..wishing that time pass faster so that the missing cells get replace n die


I don't love you
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Life in melbourne

There goes my "virgin" for transport bar

Thanks to Cisi my "virgin" was gone after one year..haha..she makes my life in Melbourne more lively with the bars and clubs..but seriously we dun quite like it..as in the music was not much better than Hitz.fm..hahaha

Well, recently I was busy attending the classes for dancing in passion and dsoul..and I seriously feel like moving back to city after all the night clubs and dancing classes..I really felt tired to travel an hour just to attend an hour class and travel an hour back home again..and we have to always rush here and there so that we won't miss the tram but we are like spending most of our time on the tram..and not to said that the house we are sharing is bad but still i figure it out that i actually like apartment more..-.-..well, really hope to move out as soon as possible if not i really feel like dying everyday..so tiring..
Recently spend too much time on dancing and travel and almost forget about my studies..haiz..should concern more on my studies even though its not that difficult but if i keep on doing this i gonna fail everything..and my time to go on bed as well..everyday sleep after 5am seriously I feel like dying faster..haha

First day back to Mel with the 8 degree in Spring

Ok, let talk about Angel and Aiko..They are my dancing instructors which is from Taiwan and Japan..Aiko's girl's hip hop class is more like what I want but seriously I'm not good in memorizing..I always forgot steps and can't follow up during all the classes and was so suck..so I had decide to practice it after the class..but some of my basic did improve after stopping for quite a time..Even tough I'm not good in her new jazz i still think its a good starts for me to learnt more and improve myself..coz like we know..i'm better in hip hop but not rolling my butt and waving my body..haha..but I'm learning how to shake my butt now from Cisi..still my biggest problem is i don;t dare..As for Angel, her class was always full of laughter and energy..I like her class but hers is more on girl style will be something like new jazz..so its still the same..not dare and more practice..but both of them have different style..and Cisi said I should had choose one person to follow..hmm..currently I like Aiko's class more coz its more on hip hop but i still like Angel's lively teaching and more powerful choreo..so hard to decide..

After Aiko's class in Passion

Well life in Melbourne is still building up from friends, fun, study, food and sleep..since its summer break, now its just me and Cisi who always hang around..we also decide to find a part time job coz we are seriously spending a lot on shopping, eating, classes and party..and we had decide to go back malaysia next year..so we do need money!!btw..Cisi's not feeling well with her stomach recently and the doc basically ask her to stop eating everything except veg and rice..@@..hope she'll get well soon..

First birthday in Mel

Ma la you huo

Going vic market tomorrow..nice breakfast is waiting for me..wohoo~but I seriously need more exercise..gaining weight and my dad keep on complaining already..but i just can't control myself on eating..>_<..haha
And I do hate mac coz a lot of software can't use..now I just wanna merge the pix together also dunno what to do..sien..lazy to upload everything leh..-.-..maybe will go grab one ori software..no money no money..

I might be posting weird and blur stuff recently coz I'm seriously lack of sleep..>_<..hope I didn't make any joke here..haha


ps./ Didn't get you to answer it
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sometimes its better to not be so clear


Life brings a little of fate sometimes don't you think? Seriously I dunno how to reaction when I heard that..but some how I think there is still hope in our friendship..

I was always thinking that its ok that you dun contract us and its fine to find us when you got your difficulty or broke up with your gf, there's where a friend is needed.. yet after the day you broke our promise, our friendship doesn't mean anything anymore..i was tired..tired on having hope and hearing your excuses..tired of the uncomfortable moment when ur gf is here..and glade that i didn't went back to my mistake again last year..coz i don't need you to pity me..i don't need you to feel bad and treat me better for the things you did 4 years ago..you wasn't there went I need you 4 years ago and you are happiest when I was sad..you are so selfish and most of all..you dun even know what you want..

But..I remember you are the one who help me to pass through the hardest time when I was first in Melbourne..you are the one who come comfort me when I was alone in the dark back lorong..I dunno how should I react when I heard the present was from you actually..coz that was the time i felt comfort when i know even i'm having my first birthday in oversea, I wasn't lonely after all..Thanks for everything even though my emotional get a bit confuse but what is over is over..you are still my friend..=)

Saw what he post on fb makes me worried..is he stress? or sometimes just happened to him?I wanna call him so badly when I saw the wall post but guess he'll be still sleeping at time..=(..felt like crying all the sudden..i miss him so much and i just have no result to call him..i was always silence and trying to find some topic so that he won't hang the call..but it always doesn't last long..every time I tried to make myself happy when hanging..telling myself I should be satisfied coz he spend time talking with me..TT..but I just MISS HIM BADLY


ps./ I'll be brave
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Dream will always the Dream


Can't really control my emotional recently..Sometimes its like a small little girl been given sweets..sweet and happy even active having her own new toys; getting mad easily, down, sad and cry was on the other hand happening..I'm like a lively volcano, can't predict at all..

It had been weeks that I didn't call him since the last time i wake him up..I miss him..I really do..but I'm scared at the same time..
scared I had been disturbing him, scared he'll felt annoyed on me..yet he'll forget me..Life and human being can be very simple but I just make it so complicated..haha

I had a dream the other day..dreaming of him and was so happy..smiling all the way until I woke up from the dream..Cisi was watching me when I awake and she know it well that who I dream of..It was the first time I felt..secure and happy?I dun even know how to describe it yet it was just a dream..once you are awake you just have to face the reality..
I did have great time when I was with him and I do regret on letting go yet that's the fact and I shouldn't be staying anymore..

Seeing everyone so strong..I should keep up with my optimize thinking with my good mood everyday..=)..add oil la..will be posting "back to melbourne" for my next post


ps./ was thinking to open back to public for my blog, should I?

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4 months holidays


Starts it with guinness

Ola~it has been ages that I didn't came up here..looking back on all the pix....
My mind "OMG where should I start?so many things to say and share..what should I post?taiwan?pantai keracut?the parties???"haha

Like what you see, I had been spending my whole holidays with all my babes and friends for almost 4 months, partying, hanging, playing, gossiping, eating, facialing, traveling, drinking, drinking & its still drinking..haha..hmm..add some EMOING as well..=p
A lot of things happened in this 4 months yet its unbelievable, unforgettable, unchangeable, memorably n happy

Hmm..lets talk about myself first..first with the "organic" red hair then with a hair cut + another black red tint with red highlight after a month follow by a purple tint with..pink?orange?highlight?haha..i dye my hair 3 times in 2 months..oh god..ITS TIME TO STOP..but i kinda like my current hair style..even after the color fade, it was never showing purple by the way,I mean at least i didn't see it and the pix doesn't show it..haha..well, now it has turn to be a bit reddish copper and my hair getting longer..problem comes..ITS HARD to maintain short hair..=(..one hair cut cost me 75 aud..i'm gonna broke if I still going for it.. then should I just keep it?hmm..whatever..will think about it when its time..=)..then with the "sexy" look ppl were saying..haha..there's actually one thing "there's no sign saying I can't take pix in the fitting room"..XD..I didn't turn up to be very hardworking..I'm still the lazy old me stay at home with my laptop most of the time when I'm here in Melbourne. btw I had decide to stop shopping..i mean stop wasting money on unnecessary stuff coz i still LAZY to dress up myself..so it will be a waste n i'm really gonna broke if i keep on like this..even though i still said "YES!no need to change money for me I still have"-.-..faster get a part time job la..haiz..stop crapping..jump back to the time I'm in pg, kl and taiwan..

When kl twice I guess not include transit to Taiwan was with Jia Yong and the others..There is the first time we went there for the concert and battleground. Well. that was my first time taking bus alone to kl and yet I was with the weird feeling..excited?sad?haha..i dunno?but end up he did came and that little piggy just sleep the whole night ignoring me..well i though I forgot what happened that night yet it just recall back when I'm typing this..anyway, that was the first concert I had been..it was so tiring and seriously my back wasn't having a good time with me but I still stand for the whole concert till it finish..*secret- I was actually falling asleep half way..=p..the other time was the astro battle ground 1st audition..that was the first time I felt so nervous until my heart almost stop beating..even though they enter top5 but not finalist, i felt happy for time..they know their problems and they have to choice to solve it..that's it!oh ya~that night was my first time driving from kl to pg also..haha..so many first time..

Then what I remember when I was spending my holidays in pg, BED became my 2nd home..hahaha..go class sometimes also will absent once or twice but this is like EVERYDAY present!!Am I MAD???lol..even the uncle also recognized me saying I was there everyday..@@..anyway..thanks Kido, Ah Neh and my babe Ash always take care us there..haha..but when you guys wanna let me drunk jek?I heard that for ages ad but not once..the very last time they even end up laying like a dead fishes in studio..btw not to forget yeezie that walk in..
then with the 007 ping, the frog dom dom dom, girls' talk, crying in BED..haha..and with this geng of ppl we went pantai keracut, went party for maggie's farewell, went 3 competitions, ah dyi and yunn's wedding, pan cake, movie, bella italia, shusi,kim steamboat,tomyam moi, studio,red garden, and not to forget goodall..haha..well..mention about food the time I miss the most is having lunch with babe Ash everyday which becomes both our habits..have a 2nd thought on traveling to pg everyday..how did i do that?now i can feel that my house is real far..haha
At that time I learnt a lot..I learnt to be optimize; learnt to enjoy myself; learnt to be mature; learnt to know things can be very simple yet I learnt all that after I lost the important person in my life. I dunno how things going to turn up. Some said I'm stupid. He said its not worth it and what I said is, I just wanna be happy so just let me do what I wanna do. I didn't know what u want but I dun think you want me to act childish and being sad everyday..I dun declare that I'm just giving myself a hope so that I stop crying, stop emo, stand up still and enjoy my life..but there is still this 0.1 of emotional makes me crazy when i'm down..0.8 makes me sad after seeing his fb..0.2(+10 when knowing its just me) telling myself everything is over..but ya..there is still this 98.9 telling me not to give up. Well who knows?maybe I'll get a better man?or I might just stick back with that it is..=)

As for Taiwan, me and Xiao An spend most of our money on food then day tours and shopping. We went a lot of garden seeing all the views and I had a bag of 10 shoes back with 6 of mine..=p..overall still a nice trip coz i actually spend all my time sleeping..haha
that's it for my 4 months holidays post..btw hopefully I can get a photo editing software for mac


ps./ I was always smiling when I think about you
problems exist ur choice to be solve

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