Mr.Green

until now the feeling is still there

when the first time I touch it

my heart beat differently

and I just can't accept that this is happening

I'm sorry

I'm really sorry

its body wasn't cold

its color doesn't change much like they said

but it become fatter compare to the last time I saw him

and the feeling was totally different

its like everything inside was not join together anymore

everytime I'm not to one who settled them

but now I know how it feels to throw them away

ps./ no one knows what's gonna happened next

appreciate what you are having

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Yeah

yahoo

now I can just write my blog without worrying

coz I had lock my blog

had a long talk with May last night

I hope she gets better

and both of us can be stronger

it was happy

it was touch

it was sad

but everything is over

it remains me of something

and like Maggie said "trust" is the thing to tighten us

ps./ there is a bright light coming out from the dark

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Nov 21st
I'm getting older every year when come to this day
A lot of expectation for every year and for this year as well

I'm happy with those who remember my birthday
and I got 2 suprise for this year
thanks to
*Maggie*bb*chee hooi*ashley*er jie*Cisi*Kuhan*
they celebrated my birthday earlier coz my bb and Cisi won't be here

its simple but nice and warm coz I get to be with all of them
but someone is missing and if she was there everything will be perfect
I know she got things to do but hopefully we can gather again with no one absent

with the uncle..xp

Maggie

in coffee island

ashley and cisi

1st cake

I love you..muackss^^

wondering how to cut the cake

amm

as for today
I was shock that I didn't expect anyone to celebrate with me anymore
but thanks to
*yee fung*wei lit*steampek*JxHia*Mig*one of the twins*

they bought a cake for me
and I have to say sorry to them coz I dun eat coffee and the smell of coffee is very thick so I didn't have it
but I'm very touch and happy and also sorry
[but seriously I didn't like to eat the candle..mig try to push me 3 times but I just get to broken the candle but my strength was not that bad after all]

and I'm glade that I get to see Vera on today also^^

the cake for today in studio

and of course my family
they are the one who celebrate with me each year no matter I celebrate with my friends or not

3rd cake

making wishes

thanks for all the wishes and all of you that remember my birthdays
I'm not alone coz I got u guys^^
XOXO[haha..JxHia teach de]
hope everyone have a nice day as well

didn't really took much pix
but more pix will be uploading soon



ps./ I was waiting and finally there is it
I love you and miss you badly
I'll be more optimise

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wondering around

everyone is working hard

doing their own role

and what am I doing?

nothing

wondering around

searching for the path

you are right

I shouldn't be like this

and I shouldn't be looking thing so seriously

as everytime I get hurt badly when I do so

I hope I can search for the answer for these 10 days

choose the correct way so that I won't regret for it

but I just wanna let you know

if you dun LOVE you won't CARE

I really feel empty and tired recently even I'm back

everything was not the same anymore

I felt the distance between each other

everyone is going their own way

and I'm still hoping that the day would just be like it use to be

maybe I'm the only one who is going round and round

searching for the same thing and remaining the same when people are improveing and changed to be better

I dunno what I'm trying to express and I dunno what I really want

I want to speak it out loudly

I want someone to talk to

but even I had

I can't feel any better

everything can't work out on my own

and I know sometimes I shouldn't be putting so much effort in something even though I want it and love it badly

like May said

if ones doesn't know how to appreciate then you should move on

you want me to trust you

you let me trust you

but you are also the one who let me afraid in believing you

I just want a simple love

like every girl does

but maybe I should be more optimise

and things will get better

ps./ I care coz I love

the so-call "problems" which mean noting for you are things that girls usually comsider coz they care

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end of the 5

yesterday was the last day for 5 of us to hang out

coz I come back very late and so damn tired

now only get to upload

ok

we went FOD in the afternoon for shopping

[ I really got terror for shopping de ]

after that we went Crown

haha

not for the casino la

but to play

like that place so much

since I'm here for months

I dun have the feeling of going to western country

coz its so like asian country with asian ppl

but that place change my feeling

the street

the restaurant

and the feeling were so damn nice

we went Eureka, the tallest apartment in the world I guess or just Mel

[ haha..don't care la ]

and went up to 88th floor by 36 second

cool har?

but ear kinda pain

Eureka

the night view

mike de face

see the sunset and went for skydeck is the reason why we where there

the skydeck is so fucking cool

there are sound effort when we move out

and when u see down from there

you really feel the fear

so damn cool~~~~

pix in skydeck

and after we came out

its already 10 and we were starving

so we went to had western food

me and fiona took a lot of pix after that

but pity us

coz no one welling to help us to take pic

but there're still a lot of ppl welling to help us even we didn't ask them^^

aiya~recently de blog will be very messy de

coz I'm very steam this few days when I'm blogging

so that's all la

dunno what to right de

and I have to pack

but lazy

haha

ps./ happy with life when you are with ppl who appreciate you

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st kilda

tired till wanna die de

>_<

met up with Lina, Mike, Fiona, Nan today

was excited for this day

but I dunno I was too excited or I can't sleep early

I didn't get to sleep well and I woke up early today

haha..like what I had expected

Lina can't wake up today and meet us late

and me, Nan and Fiona were chating and taking pix while waiting for her

nan from Thailand and fiona from Indonesia

me and nan

we went Nando's for lunch

then go shopping again

before we go st kilda, the nearest beach

in Nando's

like the design

in bourke street

the so call "bird street" xp

I love the shorts but its too short ==

me and our big boss XD

>_<

I have been shopping for days

and I spent a lot for these days

feel like killing myslef

back to topic

since we got no where to shop

we went beach earlier

around 3.30 pm

and at first its cloudy but turn sunny when we were going to the beach

here we are..wee~~~

lina from Malaysia and Indonesia and mick from HK

it was so damn nice

the beach * wind * sun

I'm like in the heaven..XD

the sand wasn't that fine but it doesn't hurt

the sea water wasn't that sticky and its cold

its so clear that we can see everything

the sun was so big but the cool wind just make it perfect

it was awesome

make me feel like sleeping and had sun bath

its so comfortable

let just let the pix explain everything

I'm tired

and still need to pack

here we are

the cute and lovely couple^^

clear and cool

jelly fish been wash to the seashore

I just love it^^

Mick is helping himself up to be the mermaid

our new sista

that's how u feel when u are in the beach

we when "xiao wei yang" for steamboat

dinner time

there will be more pix coming by these 2 days

coz I didn't get the pix yet and lazy to upload the rest

too much~~~~

oh ya~

I might be moving out

so might not have time to update the holidays I'm having in Mel

ps./ thanks for accepting as who I am

I'm cool, so what?

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Thanks for everything

I thought u need me a lot

and now only I realize

I need you more actually

tear and joy

everything we have been through

I dunno why

and I dunno what's going on

It was hard and I can't go through

but I'm accepting everything now

I woke up

and you will no longer be the one I rely on anymore

thanks for being my friend even you are scare of me

thanks for waking me up

and let me know what's more suitable for me

ps./ Life go on

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A nice outing

yahoo~~~

today went shopping with Lina

it was so damn fun

and I'm glade I went out with her today^^

let see

I bought 3 dress 4 singlet and 2 jacket

@@

I think I spent too much for today

and tomorrow still going to Smith Street

and it was out of my expectation that I bought all that

haha

changing look

but a bit weird

>_<

hopefully I won't waste $200

some pix from the fitting room..xp

but it doesn't look nice

and i got continuous 3 pimples on the same place

==

bought jor the top but not the jean

I like the blue want but in the end I bought the green want..haha

and Lina bought a pink want

I'm so fat and my leg muscle are so big

==

or maybe I should just wear long pants

oh oh

found out something between me and Lina

our taste are the same also

haha

we went for some drink after shopping

but I forgot the name de

but what I heard from Lina is

its quite famous and the chocolate is so damn expensive

waffler and ice chocolate

so weird de logo

*kai xin guo*

me

DRINK ME

after that I went for basketball

but I left early coz Henry's exam is coming

and there's a lot of guys and I dunno them at all

but I was having fun also coz I get to sweat

YES!!!finally got the feeling of playing basketball de

haha

thanks to both of them

I enjoy my day very much

^^

all the best for Henry in his exam

and hope he get his scholarship

and as for Lina I can't wait to meet her up again and go beach^^

and happy 3 months for her and her bf

ps./ I know you work very hard and I should be as well

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