LOVE is hard

love can be shown in different way

but why u have to show in this way?

it hurts

really HURTS

can't stop my tears after what u said

i know u love me the most

but can't you just say how u feel?

instate of telling in a scolding form?

i tried to be the best daughter that u will ever be proud with

but i think i had fail to do that

i cut myself with a scissors

its not shape

but i can't find any blade

i give up by typing out how i feel

with tears that blog my side

thought there is noting

but

OWCH~

there is a cut

=="

felt better after talking to my mum

but my dad want me to continue my 5th sem

instate of wondering around for 2 or 3 months

i told my mum to let me go find for a job one day

if i can't find a job on that day

i'll go back INTI for my sem5

and go australia when its time

she told me that my dad want me to go back is coz he scare i will change my mind again if i go for work

i told my mum i won't

if i will i de done that few years ago

its not so easy to have a job

[but for me its kinda fun actually althought its tired]

hopefully my mum will understand

and let me work during that time

i dunno why?

i get my pocket money and i had enough to spend

but i juz wanna earn some money

for wat?

saving i guess?