To where I belong

I dun wanna be alone

but I had made my choice

accept it is the only way

I wanna go back to where I belong

to where I can be close with the people I love

* dance * study * have fun *

doing things together

its raining outside

I feel like having a walk

to let the rain bring away my moody mood

wash away my sadness

let the rain drop clear away the tears on my face

release me from what I am for now

I loose 3 KG in 2 days

hmm

it should be a good thing

and hopefully I can loose 8 KG before I go back

haha

tomorrow will be a brand new day

going to library to study tomorrow

hopefully Henry can go too

then I won't be alone anymore

ps./ I wanna have steamboat too

TT

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silence

I felt impress for myself

studying for 7 hours in a day

@.@

seriously

am I sick?

everyone had their first time and I didn't know that studying for so long will ever happened in my life

but as a student that's my responsibility

so here goes

study study study

I start to nervous

start to know what is the feeling of being stress in study

and sometimes I just feel like crying

==

that is so not me

but ya..it really happened in this 2 days

telling myself to be optimistic

yet I have being emoing for this 2 days

I really dunno what I want

I can't speak out my feeling

I just be silence

I use to be alone

I like to be alone

I scare to be alone

I dunno what I want and dunno what I'm trying to do

I dunno what I'm trying to express

but I just wanna said out loud

I dun like all this

will throw my laptop aside

coz I know I can't study when its around me

so I'll be in the library start from tomorrow

[If time allow me to do that]

anyway

all the best for everyone

ps./ I just wanna go home

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No longer a kid

happiness is surrounding us

every second

every where

sometimes its just us that didn't notice about it

coz the negative side of us use to be stronger than the optimistic side

yet everyone tries hard

tried hard to be optimistic

to grow up

to be a better person

coz life will be harder when u can't fight the other bad side of yours

it will bring u down to hill easily without you noticing it

I learnt

I change

to accept the world

to accept the truth and fact

to be a better person

you can't stop learning

you can't satisfied with learning

I might not be the best

I might do stupid things always

I might repeat my mistake

but I tried

I learnt

I changed

coz I'm no long a kid

ps./ * I'm happy * I'm sad *

but I'm still glade everything happened

peace_Y

miss you badly

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Question

what is the actual date?

I wonder

haha

nobody care actually

even you

ps./ I love water

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No difference

go back or stay here de birthday doesn't make any differences anymore

hmm

think of it

now only I realize my only birthday with bf is with Dean

wOo~

2 years de lo

that time just form 4 only

haha

I like her present so much

but didn't bring here

==

I think she and her ex get back together already

I hope she is happy

I was glade that she was there whenever I need a person

before

even after I came to Aus

I appreciate it and I dun ask for more

coz she'll never be mine and things actually ends 2 years ago

when we had a second chance and we didn't appreciate it

oops..talk too much

back to the topic

I was so excited that I can celebrate my birthday in Malaysia

he ask me before weather I want to celebrate it together or just both of us

I thought about that very long

but still I dun get the answer

coz I just want 2 of us go dating

but at the same time

with all of them will be fun

and I do miss all of them

but now no need to decide de

he won't be free on that time

and some of my friends also taking STPM

but its just a birthday

no big deal

every year got de la

but wonder how my birthday will end up

haha

noting to do..=p

ps./ mummy i want a better camera..>_<...

haha

in my dream

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Me

I'm still me

the fact is that won't be a good thing

I'm not going to take a blade or scissors now

which is still a good thing

but just dunno when I'll be taking all these stuff again

what's wrong with me

I dunno

and that's the thing that makes me sick

even basketball can't help me

i really dunno what i can do anymore

I feel far apart from everything I had

my lover * freinds * family

I can be alone

I use to be

but I feel empty now

a shell without soul

ps./ what to do to loose weight?

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From my heart

"Thank you!!!"

shout out loud

thanks for the caring

and all the love

I felt it deeply in my heart

even we are far apart

I can still feel all of u around me^^

I love you guys

muackss

I'll be back soon

dun miss me so much oh

haha

but I'll be missing all of you like hell

hehe

ps./ looking forward everything when going back

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Had a try

since some of my friend like dark chocolate

and I use to eat only milk chocolate

I had a try on it today

after Lina offer us some chocolate

was very moody today

and chocolate can let someone's feel better

so I bought some after lunch

even tough I'm very full

It wasn't that bad actually

not that bitter like what I imagine

and a bit sweet after u let it melt in ur mouth

the smell

the feeling so good

I felt better after having some

and I had it more and more to make myself feel better

and it actually works

I was in such a good mood in my last lesson

but I didn't notice that I had almost finish the whole bar by myself

@.@

yet things doesn't always go as you wish

I wasn't that sad

but after my bb tried to cheer me up that time

my tears almost drop

I realize my feeling

I realize what kind of friend u are to me

I get jealous and mad

I didn't notice I need you that much

or maybe you are the only one that I have here

ps./ It was so obvious after yesterday-[pity eyes]

I just wanna go home-[I miss you]

I just hope everyone is happy-[everyone]

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