english

trying not to post chinese anymore

my "xiao bu dian" complain de

haha

if u guys dunno what i'm writing

then pai seh

i'm trying also

hmm

what's in my baby's dream just now?

just said he's happy

but didn't tell me what happened actually

i think he's busy watching ice's performance now

dun want me de

=(

aiyo~

he dunno dream after awhile is forgot de meh?

dun tell me

>_<

no good de

must share share de mah

been relaxing for this 2 days

......

too much?

anyway

*new day*new challenge*

bring it on

ps./ 78 days left

can't wait to go back

miss you guys

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God playing tricks on us

vera uploaded some pic from last night

i know they went red

but i dunno its a farewell party for ashley

after seeing all the pic...

i can't stand anymore

tears drop continuously

she looked sad

why God created human being?

and let them suffer?

she's a nice gal

she dun deserve wat she's hving now

she tried..she give up..

but she didn't get wat she had paid for

Ashley

i know you're strong

dun give up k?

JIA YOU

we'll always be there for u

and love you

TT

ps./ Hate when separate

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烦恼

心又摇动了

不知道接下来该不该拿law

这科需要用七年来读完

想了又想也不懂自己要的是什么？

更不知道你知道后会有什么反应

提也不敢提

家人的反应又会是怎样的呢？

或许我应该再找些资料了再问清楚吧？

现在最重要的还是尽自己的能力考最高分

加油！！

ps./ fate bring us together and tear us apart

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缘份

两个人能在一起是一种缘份

突然觉得。。自己好幸福

虽然分开两地

经常一个人乱想

但其实也开始觉得你是在乎我的

*猜*

永远都不是答案

不管对或错

我经常用我自己的看法断定一件事情

但那都是我自己的想法

所以我学会了不要凭感觉看事情

因为很容易产生误会

我

中毒了

曾经告诉自己不要看得太重

但还是陷下去了

可是我还是会珍惜现在所拥有的

未来没人能知道

珍惜现在才是最重要的

好想快点回去哦

真的好想念你

更怕失去你

毕竟我们也没有在一起很久就分开了

不过我会努力加油的！

要一起加油哦~

^_^

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mail

just finish reading an email from dean

tears come out after reading that

although its very long

its very touch

and i can't control myself

life being a human is hard

*family*friend*studies/career*finance*

bla bla bla

is always the consideration in our life

just want to tell all of u how much i love all of you

*peace

ps./ like water..it bring me peace

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save me

heart beating

pu puk..pu puk..pu puk..pu puk..

......

the same thing happened again

i told myself it doesn't matter

he can have his freedom

told myself i'm happy with what i'm having

i'm busy with my life

knowing what kind of person u are

should be happy?or hard?

that is who u are

i can't change you

was laughing when i saw the pic

telling myself weather ever..i don't care..

but it actually bothers me

and since when i care so much?

in that moment my feeling was interesting

if i manage to blog it that time i think it would be wonderful

is it really a good choice?

do you really care?

i felt grieved

i dun want to follow the footstep anymore

i dun want to repeat the same mistake

its hard

and i won't deserve what i hv paid for

love doesn't hope for any repay

but i'm scare to pay off anymore

scare to being hurt again

i'm tired

i just one a normal life

but my life is always full of challenges

a lot of ppl said we can last

i didn't said anything

i dun even dare to predict what is going to happened to us

i dun care

SOO JIA YONG

u owe me 101 pic

u wanna take thousand pic with ur chicken maryland*mariyean* is ur business

i just want that 101 pic

I HATE YOU!!!

even Ice and Ting2 are so good

(and u said he's kinda bad last time)

>_<

people also better than u ah

i dun want to friend u de

HM!!!

our pic also total of 5 only

and some are not so close also de

wu wu T~T

back to my today's topic

finish 2 test in one day

yahOo~~^_^

super duper happy de

muahahahaha

even if the result not that good

i'm satisfied with it

i'm happy coz i finally can catch up a bit

thanks to angel and zhi hong

i'll work hard on it de

gambateh

HD~HD~HD

haha

say nia la..

one more test for tomorrow

accounting

sometime do until i wanna ki siao liao

but learnt new technique

*cool down*

haha

i'm ok with account whenever i'm cool

if i'm hot...haha

angel also not dare to talk to me

=p

Good Luck to angel and zhi hong for tomorrow bio

angel

just trust urself

u can do it

we are the best

^_^

ps./ its hard and tired

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lost

i lost myself again..

the laughter that i always having is fake?

i dunno

dun ask me why i'm moody

why i'm lost

i dun hv the answer

every time when i thought i'm ok but in the end its not

tired with my mood

i'm trying to solve everything but i can't solve this without know what the problem is

is because of u?my studies?

wat else that bothers me?

but we are fine and i'm catching up with my studies

.....

then?

this had been taking too long

i have been like this for 4 days

i told myself i will be fine soon

but i can't

i need noting but myself

ps./ u'll never know how much i need u

and u're always not there for me

thanks for the caring

miss the kiss

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MAY

felt sad when i say May's blog

something happened on her recently i guess

but i can't help her at all

i felt happy for her whenever she's happy

and found her happiness

but she's sad recently

this is me

i'm who i am

i can't stand seeing my friends sad

I love you May

u still got us

so dun be sad if anything happened

Cheer gals~

we're DISASTER

LOVE & MISS

all the best and happiness for all of us

=,)

ps.90 days

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bring me with u pls

tears drop

after seeing Vera's blog

i'm not that strong

i'm not like what u see

I'M WEEK

i didn't even know why i'm crying now

everything is fine

even i'm ok with last night story

but i'm being so useless now

I'm sick of myself

I hate who i am

i wanna release myself

why i felt noting

i don't feel the pain

i feel noting

i can stand everything that happened in my relationship

i can tolerate with my tears

but why its so easy for me to cry when come to friends

i'm so important to so many people but i can't find 1 person to share my emotion when i really need help

i was always alone

alone last night

hiding my real emotion and waiting for someone who i really can share my feeling with

but i didn't

even after the joke was over

i really hope sometimes i can be more tyrannical

even though i know i shouldn't be

i always hide my feeling with u

always pretend i'm ok

but do u know how much i need u?

how much support i need from u?

i'm always sad in front of u

i'm always causing trouble

i'm always being the burden

i'm sick of myself

pls take me with u

no matter its hell or anywhere

ps:/ is there still a place for me to stay

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did i change?

i felt bad

wanna cry

did i change?

Cisi said she got nothing

even me..she's loosing

why is she saying that?

i'm sorry if i do anything wrong

i'm tired

i'm sorry i'm tired

that was still the best choice for me

don't make any friends

i just wanna be alone

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原来这就是你

原来

思念一个人的感觉是这样的

又疼

又酸

又辛苦

不曾想要给你任何约束的我

不一样了吗？

想念你错了吗？

只是好奇你为何叹气

。。。。

原来对你也会忍不住想要落泪

我忍

我忍

努力忍

在你面前的我总是那么的小孩子气

一点都不成熟

正在听着‘突然好想你’

脑袋瓜装的都是满满的你

傻笑了

是因为想起你扁嘴后又装可爱的样子

含着泪

是因为好想告诉你‘我爱你’

想起你那爱撒娇的孩子气

大到不行的大男人

（没我老爸厉害。。哈哈）

笨笨的不体贴

睡到没感觉的猪样子

灿烂笑容的你

。。。。。。

每天反复看着的都是

在钱包里的你

ipod里的你

书桌前的你

床旁的你

可我从来没想过

你是那么的被需要

我是那么的想念你

思念总是含着泪

痛苦的

一直说不在意

一直说不在乎

一直告诉自己无所谓

但内心真的是那样

ps./ If I had a single flower every time I think about you

I could walk forever in my garden

95 days left

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100 left

receive a msg yesterday

"who says english is easy?

don't believe?

then fill in the blank with "yes" or "no"

"____, i am a pig."

see?

so,if can't answer,

send to another pig."

didn't know that english is so hard

haha

was very tired the whole day

not enough sleep i guess?

but still we had a very "busy" day

had a shusi lunch box from sakura

not bad

is the nicest in melbourne i had before

felt unstratified for my english oral

get a B for it

i dun think i lost for people who get an A in the class

he's not good in speaking and always refer to the handout

even ppl that are competitive in my class also get a B

i have no idea how Mrs.Patient give all the marks

and no one fail for the oral also

when some of them are doing badly

went for pho after class

which take 15 minutes train from melbourne centre

that was our first time taking train in melbourne

and it cost $29.40 for 10times

i felt complicated when i reach that place

but that was the biggest and cheapest pho i had ever see in melbourne

having a great dinner with a lot of ppl

but unfortunately i got gastric

and its so difficult for me to finish my MEDIUM pho

went to Melbourne centre and big W after that

to restock our stock

yet we bought a lot of drinks:

drinks in can for 200ml are so cute

and coke for $9 in 2L for 4

haha

100 days (7/8/09) left till the day i go back

so should we say fast

or

should we say slow

for a studies its far

but for a person who wanna go back to where they belong

its slow

ps:/ learnt how to say "No" and just be yourself

life is challenges and tough

yet we are strong

miss where i belong

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meaningful

If I was one thing, I'd be a candle
Lighting the way so you can handle
Your life easier without woes
Not having to fight with your foes.
I'd help keep you from stumbling over
Things blocking your path to an open door.
If I light your path, life is easier,
Even strong winds, my light will not deter.
No matter what, I'm here for you
To cheer you up when you are blue.
Do not fret when times get tough,
If things look down or kind of rough.
Just remember, I'm always here,
In your heart, close and near.
I will help you out in every way,
Happiness and love in your heart will stay.
Don't blow me out, that's one request
Unless it's me you do detest.
I do not try to hurt anyone
That isn't good or any fun.
But one day you may leave me behind
You may no longer need my light to shine.
If that day comes, go on your way
And I will hope to see you again one day.
If one day, I don't appear,
Do not worry, do not fear
I may be gone, but in your heart
The light I gave you did not depart.
It will be there forever and a day
To always bring happiness and light your way.
Farewell for now, I'm needed elsewhere
If your path grows dark, in your heart, I'm there.
So I'm really not gone, just not seen,
I would not leave, I'm not that mean.
Only one simple request that I must say,
Please, never forget those who lit your way

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what is done is done

had my math and eco test this morning

didn't really spend time on study and sleep

yet just keep chatting with vera the whole night

and end up

.........

those were the worst sub i had ever done

i dun know how to do the math

and i didn't get to finish eco in 50 minutes

i didn't felt unsatisfied with that

coz that was wat i deserve

i didn't give up anything

so i won't get anything

but still..i was worried

math is the most important sub in MUFY

and the hardest things for me to do

its no point to think without doing anything

so will try to work hard on it start from now

little angel cried today

i pretend i know noting and just act normal

didn't want her to think back

and try to cheer her up by giving her chocolate

but she dun want

but still

she laugh at the end

like a small kid

^^

dun stress urself too much

just try ur best

then u'll be the best

something wrong with the small boy too

but he didn't say anything

maybe he had regret for the math test he had

and felt bad when he saw angel cry

u're a smart boy

just add oil and try ur best

felt bad recently

dun really know what's wrong with me

but i think i'm getting ill

can't walk fast

it makes me headache and breathless

i should start exercise

and go for dancing classes

getting fat too de

my classmate Joseph ask me 2 questions before Eng class

1.Are you a basketball player or a dancer?

answer : both

2.Your're good in basketball or dancing?

answer : basketball

curious about the question he's asking

at the end....

two of them were batting

why la wanna pick me?

i dun wanna be that famous which i use to be

back to high school even Inti College

i just dun wanna involve in anything

except for studies

that's why i dun mix around with other

its good that they think i'm cool and go away from me

just leave me alone!!!!

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bad or good is just depands

was very happy after receive ur msg yesterday

^6

had a long talk

notice that i do miss you a lot

dun fell like ending the call

use to write my hand with his name always..=p

i know what i want now

and that is my choice from the begging

i love you and miss you a lot is what i wanna say

><

thinking the past that make me stronger..=)

Dean went Singapore today

sorry i was rude the day before

is ur choice to be with her or not

i can't decide anything for u

and because of the tiredness i was rude to u

en ask me u actually like ur ex or me?

it doesn't matter to me anymore

even the same thing doesn't repeat this time

i had my choice

when u love a person badly

it doesn't mean that u must have them with u

we had end our relation 2 years ago

even i love you now

i would just choose to be your friend

its more relax to be your friend u know?

thanks for the love u gave before and

dun feel guilty and try to make up anything

the one who always be with me

today i had my oral presentation

although I'm a bit nervous

but its better then the one for practice

but won't know the result till everyone had it

hope Cisi, Angel and Alvin can do well for the oral and all the test

had my CSC and acc test last week

oral, eco and math in this week

didn't get a good result in acc

and didn't get to finish the practical for CSC too

and coming math is the most headache sub for us

and for my info

we had another acc test next week

OMG!!!test test test and test

NON-STOP

haiz

didn't even have time to catch up my math if keep on like this

always bring trouble to others

i have asked Alvin and Angel to teach me for my math

[thank guys]

getting fat recently

because of my non stop eating

later go back become "fei mui"

need to start exercise

hopefully i can start my dancing class next week

and go for shopping

ps./ i was always there but u didn't notice that

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not aspected

being kinda moody recently

i have aspected everything

but not this

thought i can go through everything

since i had made the decision

yet i was wrong

it started to have effect

although i did noting wrong

but i felt bad

I'm sorry that i think that way

but i just can't control myself

><

but everything will be fine soon

just like Alvin and May said

i had the decision fix

so i can make it

no problem

just believe myself

miss you that make me felt sad

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cont 2

had a bad headache when i woke up

but thanks for Angel's breakfast

Alvin didn't get to taste the tasty sandwich

haha

didn't have a very good day

been wondering the whole day

doing noting

haiz

additional pix for Queen Victoria Market

AH~~~can't stand seeing the fresh oyster

><

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saturday night

boring and tired

been busy the whole thursday and friday

what happened?

being a "mama"

small boy Alvin and "xiao bu dian" Angel had been calling me that this few days

and that small boy not just call until very smooth

but post on facebook too

OH MY

ok..after our thursday class we had decide to cook our own dinner

since we bought a rice cook the day before

*thanks cheuk and jessica for helping as to carry our stuff*

so we started our "big job" after searching a psp for an hour

so happy when we found the white one

yahOo~

all of us are not good in cooking

so the easiest one

doesn't look nice

but still

still can eat la

haha

after dinner all of us are lazy

noting to do and boring

started our talk and different story from each other

Alvin was stuck in our place when we notice the time

poor guy have to over night here without anything to warm himself

slept at 4++ after all the facebooking and youtubing

but i can hardly sleep

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