To where I belong

I dun wanna be alone

but I had made my choice

accept it is the only way

I wanna go back to where I belong

to where I can be close with the people I love

* dance * study * have fun *

doing things together

its raining outside

I feel like having a walk

to let the rain bring away my moody mood

wash away my sadness

let the rain drop clear away the tears on my face

release me from what I am for now

I loose 3 KG in 2 days

hmm

it should be a good thing

and hopefully I can loose 8 KG before I go back

haha

tomorrow will be a brand new day

going to library to study tomorrow

hopefully Henry can go too

then I won't be alone anymore

ps./ I wanna have steamboat too

TT

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silence

I felt impress for myself

studying for 7 hours in a day

@.@

seriously

am I sick?

everyone had their first time and I didn't know that studying for so long will ever happened in my life

but as a student that's my responsibility

so here goes

study study study

I start to nervous

start to know what is the feeling of being stress in study

and sometimes I just feel like crying

==

that is so not me

but ya..it really happened in this 2 days

telling myself to be optimistic

yet I have being emoing for this 2 days

I really dunno what I want

I can't speak out my feeling

I just be silence

I use to be alone

I like to be alone

I scare to be alone

I dunno what I want and dunno what I'm trying to do

I dunno what I'm trying to express

but I just wanna said out loud

I dun like all this

will throw my laptop aside

coz I know I can't study when its around me

so I'll be in the library start from tomorrow

[If time allow me to do that]

anyway

all the best for everyone

ps./ I just wanna go home

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No longer a kid

happiness is surrounding us

every second

every where

sometimes its just us that didn't notice about it

coz the negative side of us use to be stronger than the optimistic side

yet everyone tries hard

tried hard to be optimistic

to grow up

to be a better person

coz life will be harder when u can't fight the other bad side of yours

it will bring u down to hill easily without you noticing it

I learnt

I change

to accept the world

to accept the truth and fact

to be a better person

you can't stop learning

you can't satisfied with learning

I might not be the best

I might do stupid things always

I might repeat my mistake

but I tried

I learnt

I changed

coz I'm no long a kid

ps./ * I'm happy * I'm sad *

but I'm still glade everything happened

peace_Y

miss you badly

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Question

what is the actual date?

I wonder

haha

nobody care actually

even you

ps./ I love water

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No difference

go back or stay here de birthday doesn't make any differences anymore

hmm

think of it

now only I realize my only birthday with bf is with Dean

wOo~

2 years de lo

that time just form 4 only

haha

I like her present so much

but didn't bring here

==

I think she and her ex get back together already

I hope she is happy

I was glade that she was there whenever I need a person

before

even after I came to Aus

I appreciate it and I dun ask for more

coz she'll never be mine and things actually ends 2 years ago

when we had a second chance and we didn't appreciate it

oops..talk too much

back to the topic

I was so excited that I can celebrate my birthday in Malaysia

he ask me before weather I want to celebrate it together or just both of us

I thought about that very long

but still I dun get the answer

coz I just want 2 of us go dating

but at the same time

with all of them will be fun

and I do miss all of them

but now no need to decide de

he won't be free on that time

and some of my friends also taking STPM

but its just a birthday

no big deal

every year got de la

but wonder how my birthday will end up

haha

noting to do..=p

ps./ mummy i want a better camera..>_<...

haha

in my dream

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Me

I'm still me

the fact is that won't be a good thing

I'm not going to take a blade or scissors now

which is still a good thing

but just dunno when I'll be taking all these stuff again

what's wrong with me

I dunno

and that's the thing that makes me sick

even basketball can't help me

i really dunno what i can do anymore

I feel far apart from everything I had

my lover * freinds * family

I can be alone

I use to be

but I feel empty now

a shell without soul

ps./ what to do to loose weight?

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From my heart

"Thank you!!!"

shout out loud

thanks for the caring

and all the love

I felt it deeply in my heart

even we are far apart

I can still feel all of u around me^^

I love you guys

muackss

I'll be back soon

dun miss me so much oh

haha

but I'll be missing all of you like hell

hehe

ps./ looking forward everything when going back

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Had a try

since some of my friend like dark chocolate

and I use to eat only milk chocolate

I had a try on it today

after Lina offer us some chocolate

was very moody today

and chocolate can let someone's feel better

so I bought some after lunch

even tough I'm very full

It wasn't that bad actually

not that bitter like what I imagine

and a bit sweet after u let it melt in ur mouth

the smell

the feeling so good

I felt better after having some

and I had it more and more to make myself feel better

and it actually works

I was in such a good mood in my last lesson

but I didn't notice that I had almost finish the whole bar by myself

@.@

yet things doesn't always go as you wish

I wasn't that sad

but after my bb tried to cheer me up that time

my tears almost drop

I realize my feeling

I realize what kind of friend u are to me

I get jealous and mad

I didn't notice I need you that much

or maybe you are the only one that I have here

ps./ It was so obvious after yesterday-[pity eyes]

I just wanna go home-[I miss you]

I just hope everyone is happy-[everyone]

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Baka

u send me this

"baka"

ya

that's me

i had not being myself for these two days

not doing what i want

and not saying what i want

but my mouth and fingers doesn't function like my mind want me to in the end

coz i'm forcing myself to take it that way

the way of being good

not being myself

[my finger so honest]

in the end i said everything out with my tears

"xu fuk sai"

shouldn't be selfish?

being selfish?

nah~just do what i want

like maggie said

if we cover up for him this time doesn't meant that there won't be next time

May

All of us just care about friend

If we dun care we won’t say anything

If we are not friend

all of us will not accept the bad side of other for months and even years

You might never care

You can don’t care

But did you really thought it deeply?

We didn’t want to break you guy

We are just trying to help

But its ok that u dun care

You actually know the fact yet bluffing yourself

Hopeful you won’t meet anything

At least you’ll be happy forever

I hope

you are getting mad at me

I'll just shut up next time

ps./ I'll be honest to my feeling

I love you too^^

shout out loud

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pretending

found out something

I'm very good in pretending

*clap hands~~~

but no one really knows

the truth

hmm

i think i can be actor liao

ahaha

ps./ A word can make some1 down till hell, it can also let u fly up high

A word can make some1 sheds his/her tear, it can also bring a smile of his/her

A word can make some1 sleepless, it can also help he/she in her sleep

so what is the word that you are having?

I'm having "guess"

modify from Ashley's facebook de pm

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It really hurts

IT REALLY HURTS

when the words come out from you

when I just let that be

but I shouldn't be that selfish

It happened like what I had excepted

but not that worst

yet you will know it one day

the truth and what is the purpose

final is around the corner

I'll use these time to work hard on it

there is noting else I can do anymore

ps./ it was sad

when u thought that will last forver

and suddenly

it disappear just like that

in the air

for the wind to carry away

without informing and give you any preparation

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>_<

I wanna go home

I MISS MY BB!!!!

haiz

always dreaming in class nia

think of the food

think of ...the food?

yo~

eat dye me ah

fat de la

haiz

wanna go have nap liao

oh ya~

finals coming soon

but

i'm very geng

still everyday stick with my laptop

do noting

we'll see how i gonna dye

ps./ i miss everything

but most probably everything changed

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有些事，一转身就是一辈子

saw this video last night from facebook

hmm

........

this feeling

.........

didn't know how to describe it

yet it reminds me a lot of my pass

that I have loss...

even gain

just wanna treasure everything I'm having now

♥ My Family ♥

♥♥ My Bb ♥♥

♥ My Friendzzzz ♥

just to share

ps./ Treasure everything you're having

Don't regret coz u don't deserve a second chance

It's not hard yet just a heart is needed

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Just finish playing basketball

so damn tired

like wanna die de

worst than dead fish

Just now when I was playing basketball

I get hit by the ball

and I blank out awhile and dunno why just can't stand and sit on the floor

even tears also come out and can't control my snivel also

@.@

this shows that I'm too~~~~obtuse

even I saw the ball but i didn't get to catch it in time

and my de-fence is getting bad liao la

>_<

talk until basketball

pls dun show off in front of me la

thought u're very pro izit?

you dun even look like a guy

even better than u de also dun show off and play that rude with gal

u know u're such a "gentleman"

so KPC so no manners

use ur brain first before u do or say anything

ok

back to topic

dun wanna let this kind of ppl spoilt my mood

10/10

its Gemma and Ah Dyi's birthday

yeah~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

after playing basketball

we stop Gemma from going back

coz after 7 min it gonna reach 12

then we snap snap snap

get disappointed for the hip hop class again

wonder why they still wanna note there when there is no one going there to teach

anyway

going to sleep de

so damn tired

ps./ hope everyone is happy

and everything go smooth

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Angel's big big day

muahaha

attack attack attack

told u there will be another heart attack for you

fun leh?

one weeks get 3 times

=p

hehe

anyway

happy 18th birthday

love you

muackss

the first mango moose cake

xiao bu dian with cute cheuk and pretty jessica

♥ xiao bu dian and me ♥

in Giraffe Cafe *the group*

2nd cake

stupid present I give

kissing with smily face

small kid playing balloons

Angel with smily face balloons

♥ kissing ♥

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO BU DIAN ♥

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原来

其实

不是他不在乎

不是他不在意

不是他不爱我

而是自己怕受伤

不敢尝试

也没去相信那是事实

许许多多的误会

沟通不良

让我们的长距离恋爱有了

^ 悲伤 ^

^ 愤怒 ^

我也发现到

原来不是默不吭声的

^ 付出 ^

^ 改变 ^

就会被察觉到

所以被跟我犯同样的错好吗？

不要那么自私

那么担心

那么安静

因为你不说

我永远都不知道原来那是你一直以来想对我说的

today is xiao bu dian's birthday

bet she gonna peli me again when she saw my blog in chinese

hehe

but really its noting special

and i dunno how to express it in english

not underage anymore de oh

but still u'll be our "xiao bu dian"

haha

even u are not celebrating with ur family this year

you still got us k?

we will let u have a lot of "first time" with us

^_^

ps./ Happy Birthday Angel

reminds me about the balcony..haha

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