Mr.Green

until now the feeling is still there

when the first time I touch it

my heart beat differently

and I just can't accept that this is happening

I'm sorry

I'm really sorry

its body wasn't cold

its color doesn't change much like they said

but it become fatter compare to the last time I saw him

and the feeling was totally different

its like everything inside was not join together anymore

everytime I'm not to one who settled them

but now I know how it feels to throw them away

ps./ no one knows what's gonna happened next

appreciate what you are having

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Yeah

yahoo

now I can just write my blog without worrying

coz I had lock my blog

had a long talk with May last night

I hope she gets better

and both of us can be stronger

it was happy

it was touch

it was sad

but everything is over

it remains me of something

and like Maggie said "trust" is the thing to tighten us

ps./ there is a bright light coming out from the dark

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Nov 21st
I'm getting older every year when come to this day
A lot of expectation for every year and for this year as well

I'm happy with those who remember my birthday
and I got 2 suprise for this year
thanks to
*Maggie*bb*chee hooi*ashley*er jie*Cisi*Kuhan*
they celebrated my birthday earlier coz my bb and Cisi won't be here

its simple but nice and warm coz I get to be with all of them
but someone is missing and if she was there everything will be perfect
I know she got things to do but hopefully we can gather again with no one absent

with the uncle..xp

Maggie

in coffee island

ashley and cisi

1st cake

I love you..muackss^^

wondering how to cut the cake

amm

as for today
I was shock that I didn't expect anyone to celebrate with me anymore
but thanks to
*yee fung*wei lit*steampek*JxHia*Mig*one of the twins*

they bought a cake for me
and I have to say sorry to them coz I dun eat coffee and the smell of coffee is very thick so I didn't have it
but I'm very touch and happy and also sorry
[but seriously I didn't like to eat the candle..mig try to push me 3 times but I just get to broken the candle but my strength was not that bad after all]

and I'm glade that I get to see Vera on today also^^

the cake for today in studio

and of course my family
they are the one who celebrate with me each year no matter I celebrate with my friends or not

3rd cake

making wishes

thanks for all the wishes and all of you that remember my birthdays
I'm not alone coz I got u guys^^
XOXO[haha..JxHia teach de]
hope everyone have a nice day as well

didn't really took much pix
but more pix will be uploading soon



ps./ I was waiting and finally there is it
I love you and miss you badly
I'll be more optimise

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wondering around

everyone is working hard

doing their own role

and what am I doing?

nothing

wondering around

searching for the path

you are right

I shouldn't be like this

and I shouldn't be looking thing so seriously

as everytime I get hurt badly when I do so

I hope I can search for the answer for these 10 days

choose the correct way so that I won't regret for it

but I just wanna let you know

if you dun LOVE you won't CARE

I really feel empty and tired recently even I'm back

everything was not the same anymore

I felt the distance between each other

everyone is going their own way

and I'm still hoping that the day would just be like it use to be

maybe I'm the only one who is going round and round

searching for the same thing and remaining the same when people are improveing and changed to be better

I dunno what I'm trying to express and I dunno what I really want

I want to speak it out loudly

I want someone to talk to

but even I had

I can't feel any better

everything can't work out on my own

and I know sometimes I shouldn't be putting so much effort in something even though I want it and love it badly

like May said

if ones doesn't know how to appreciate then you should move on

you want me to trust you

you let me trust you

but you are also the one who let me afraid in believing you

I just want a simple love

like every girl does

but maybe I should be more optimise

and things will get better

ps./ I care coz I love

the so-call "problems" which mean noting for you are things that girls usually comsider coz they care

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end of the 5

yesterday was the last day for 5 of us to hang out

coz I come back very late and so damn tired

now only get to upload

ok

we went FOD in the afternoon for shopping

[ I really got terror for shopping de ]

after that we went Crown

haha

not for the casino la

but to play

like that place so much

since I'm here for months

I dun have the feeling of going to western country

coz its so like asian country with asian ppl

but that place change my feeling

the street

the restaurant

and the feeling were so damn nice

we went Eureka, the tallest apartment in the world I guess or just Mel

[ haha..don't care la ]

and went up to 88th floor by 36 second

cool har?

but ear kinda pain

Eureka

the night view

mike de face

see the sunset and went for skydeck is the reason why we where there

the skydeck is so fucking cool

there are sound effort when we move out

and when u see down from there

you really feel the fear

so damn cool~~~~

pix in skydeck

and after we came out

its already 10 and we were starving

so we went to had western food

me and fiona took a lot of pix after that

but pity us

coz no one welling to help us to take pic

but there're still a lot of ppl welling to help us even we didn't ask them^^

aiya~recently de blog will be very messy de

coz I'm very steam this few days when I'm blogging

so that's all la

dunno what to right de

and I have to pack

but lazy

haha

ps./ happy with life when you are with ppl who appreciate you

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st kilda

tired till wanna die de

>_<

met up with Lina, Mike, Fiona, Nan today

was excited for this day

but I dunno I was too excited or I can't sleep early

I didn't get to sleep well and I woke up early today

haha..like what I had expected

Lina can't wake up today and meet us late

and me, Nan and Fiona were chating and taking pix while waiting for her

nan from Thailand and fiona from Indonesia

me and nan

we went Nando's for lunch

then go shopping again

before we go st kilda, the nearest beach

in Nando's

like the design

in bourke street

the so call "bird street" xp

I love the shorts but its too short ==

me and our big boss XD

>_<

I have been shopping for days

and I spent a lot for these days

feel like killing myslef

back to topic

since we got no where to shop

we went beach earlier

around 3.30 pm

and at first its cloudy but turn sunny when we were going to the beach

here we are..wee~~~

lina from Malaysia and Indonesia and mick from HK

it was so damn nice

the beach * wind * sun

I'm like in the heaven..XD

the sand wasn't that fine but it doesn't hurt

the sea water wasn't that sticky and its cold

its so clear that we can see everything

the sun was so big but the cool wind just make it perfect

it was awesome

make me feel like sleeping and had sun bath

its so comfortable

let just let the pix explain everything

I'm tired

and still need to pack

here we are

the cute and lovely couple^^

clear and cool

jelly fish been wash to the seashore

I just love it^^

Mick is helping himself up to be the mermaid

our new sista

that's how u feel when u are in the beach

we when "xiao wei yang" for steamboat

dinner time

there will be more pix coming by these 2 days

coz I didn't get the pix yet and lazy to upload the rest

too much~~~~

oh ya~

I might be moving out

so might not have time to update the holidays I'm having in Mel

ps./ thanks for accepting as who I am

I'm cool, so what?

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Thanks for everything

I thought u need me a lot

and now only I realize

I need you more actually

tear and joy

everything we have been through

I dunno why

and I dunno what's going on

It was hard and I can't go through

but I'm accepting everything now

I woke up

and you will no longer be the one I rely on anymore

thanks for being my friend even you are scare of me

thanks for waking me up

and let me know what's more suitable for me

ps./ Life go on

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A nice outing

yahoo~~~

today went shopping with Lina

it was so damn fun

and I'm glade I went out with her today^^

let see

I bought 3 dress 4 singlet and 2 jacket

@@

I think I spent too much for today

and tomorrow still going to Smith Street

and it was out of my expectation that I bought all that

haha

changing look

but a bit weird

>_<

hopefully I won't waste $200

some pix from the fitting room..xp

but it doesn't look nice

and i got continuous 3 pimples on the same place

==

bought jor the top but not the jean

I like the blue want but in the end I bought the green want..haha

and Lina bought a pink want

I'm so fat and my leg muscle are so big

==

or maybe I should just wear long pants

oh oh

found out something between me and Lina

our taste are the same also

haha

we went for some drink after shopping

but I forgot the name de

but what I heard from Lina is

its quite famous and the chocolate is so damn expensive

waffler and ice chocolate

so weird de logo

*kai xin guo*

me

DRINK ME

after that I went for basketball

but I left early coz Henry's exam is coming

and there's a lot of guys and I dunno them at all

but I was having fun also coz I get to sweat

YES!!!finally got the feeling of playing basketball de

haha

thanks to both of them

I enjoy my day very much

^^

all the best for Henry in his exam

and hope he get his scholarship

and as for Lina I can't wait to meet her up again and go beach^^

and happy 3 months for her and her bf

ps./ I know you work very hard and I should be as well

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6 more days

promises are meant to be broke?

again

another is being broke

haiz

no haagen daze for birthday de lur

gonna celebrate with family this year I guess

waited very long

thought everything can be settled

yet you forgot our promise

I'm not the right person to talk to

I know that clearly

and that's the biggest problem we are having

a bit of disappointed but we'll talk about it when I go back

at least everything is fine now^^

6 more days to go

I had been sleeping the whole day

didn't even walk out from this apartment for 3 days

laptop was on for more than 72 hours

HUH!!!

seriously

that's so not me

how can I stay in the room for so long

@@

but I did it

gonna go out tomorrow

if not I gonna be crazy

but tomorrow gonna be hotter than today

34 degree~~~

>_<

getting dizzy after seeing the temperature

Malaysia also not so hot

at least it was raining this few days

but I like summer

hurray to the shiny sun

I think after get use to the sudden change I'll be super duper happy

being lazy

but might be cleaning up my stuff

and start to pack

bb said iguana has lost his tail

pity Mr. Green

but I think it will grow back

temporary just be short tail Mr. Green la^^

ps./ can wait to see what is that

* excited *

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misunderstanding

hahaha

its actually a misunderstanding

and because of my "good" imagination

I let things turn worst

but lucky things doesn't like what I had imagine

^^

we gonna talk everything

and things will be fine

ps./ back to who I am

peace^^

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Back to the past

It hurts badly

I just hope everything can be fine

I hope everything will be erase and being replace

I make like it doesn't matter

I make like I doesn't care

but it hurts more than everything after that

even you pretend noting happened

I still can't accept it

I miss you badly

TT

I just hope we are happy

I hope everything just go back before this

I hate the sadness

ps./ I'll find a better way and won't let 8 happened again

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What just happened

I dunno what you want

and I'm trying to control my tears coz I have to be strong

yet I can't make it now

its so tiring but I still can't stop it at all

why everything can't be smooth

why every time there must be something happened when one is end

there is noting wrong with us

yet both of us are not happy

both of us are suffering now

what's going on

what exactly is the problem between us

I dunno what I have to do to let you know that I'm not sad with you

you are not the one who make me sad and cry every time

and I always get emo is my personality not because of you

and I'm trying to change that as well

and you are not useless

maybe you are stress with your work

but you didn't tell me anything at all

and now what I can do is just guess

I hate all this

can't we just talk out everything

you said before we can said everything

ps./ I hope I won't wake up so that I can stop my mind

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I'll always be there

dunno why

I can't express that sudden sadness I'm having

its noting touch

its noting special

yet after seeing your blog

my heart suddenly felt pain

like needles pricking on it

maybe I felt the pain you are having

or maybe I felt sad coz you are not happy

but I just wanna tell you

even we are far apart

I'll still be there for all of you

coz I LOVE ALL OF YOU

Its hard

yet everything is possible

so don't let distance drag our friendship away

you know what?

I always feel lonely and sad

always feel like giving up and go back

go back to the place I'm familiar with and with all the people I love and care

yet I'm just like a baby

* not mature * not strong * always manja only *

even thought I wanna stay with all of you so badly

I can't give up anything more then my future

and I should stay strong with my decision that I had made with no regret and starts to grow up

I'm accepting the challenges in my life

walking through all that

and I'm happy with what I'm for now

coz i notice I have change in these few days

* HAPPY *

is the key

I dunno did I really change or that is just temporary

but I'm glade that I'm for this few days

coz even life is tough I still can walk through it happily

so you must cheer also k?

I'll always be there whenever you need me^^

today is the last day for my exam

hurray~~~

haha

even thought it has no different

but hey~I'm going back soon!!!

9 & 1/2 days

haha

gonna pack my luggage later

oh ya

me and Lina plan to go somewhere before we go back

so we'll be planning for tonight I guess

coz both of us are the only one who finish our exam first

beach~~~zoo~~~here we come~~~

haha

and this is what happened when we had lunch

not much

but I miss one shoot on Adrian with his funny face

haha

when Lina was thinking of Mick..haha

see ancient de face..xp

noting to write de

hope everyone have a nice day

tata^^

ps./ my previous post is so damn ugly>_<

who is that not bad looking guy?haha

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Selected

I like to read blog but i guess today is my bad day

but i didn't know that you miss me so much XD

and since you miss me that much

ok la

I answer ur question

幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題，貼到自己的網誌or報台寫完後，自己 加一個問題然後傳給十個人，可以點點過的人，被你點的人你要去跟他說，我點到你了。寫完後去跟點到你 人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔，不寫幸福就會跑掉喔...

1.我的大名 ：Jamie Tan

2.我的生日 : 21/11

3.誰傳給你的 : 陈大肥

4.說出五個好朋友 : 每个都很好耶>_<

5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 啊~自己喜欢的东西[touch,psp,camera,phone,clothes,special,etc] XD

[我生日快到了，礼物~~哈哈]

6.近期開心的是 : 学会了不在在乎，开心就好

还有还有，要回家了~yeah~~~

7.近期壓力大的是 : 考试但已经过了 = 没有

8.未來想做什麼: 想了19年。。想着~

9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 有~~~还很多个噢^^

10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 回去找番薯噢？=p

11.跟誰出去最幸福 : 我喜欢的人。。对啦~就是你们^^

12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 伤心

13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 哪里都行，只要有他就好

14.聖誕節要做啥 : 那么大的节日当然是跟我最爱的你们出门咯。。

不过也想去新加坡~~~但妈妈不给=(

15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 朋友，当然还有我的bb

16.有沒有起床气 : 啊。。什么是起床气？

17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 3，2个可爱的妹妹还有一个gao gao的弟弟

[外加的数不清]

18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : I wanna love you forever（呱？）

19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : unbreakable(呱？还是）

nothing gonna change my love for you（不懂）

20.喜歡什麼顏色 : 紫，红，orange，青，黑，白

- E~好像都喜欢耶=p

21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 如果人家没冲就会

22.愛不愛我 : 爱死你啊。。哈哈

23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 都喜欢

24.最想大聲說什麼 : 啊！！！！！（呱）

25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : =.=我不会尿床的。。哈哈。。

26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 我不是一岁小妹妹

27.誰很欠打 : 没有脑，惹人厌的人

28.現在很迷什麼 : facebook，因为不会阻止我继续八卦XD

29.睡相很差 : 不会呱？自己怎么知道阿？你来帮我答吧

30.現在的時間 : 2112

31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : 哈哈。。不会拉。。超“喜欢”的

32.體重多少 : 50哎~[10天后就会剩45。。放心。。哈哈]

33.今天天氣 : 不错，太阳很大但外面有点冷

34.你懷孕了嗎 : 没做哪来的怀孕啊？

35.你若中樂透最想做什么 : 旅行，血拼，吃美食，存银行

36.大學生一定要玩的活動 : 有这种东西噢？那我说"Let's party~~~"哈哈

37.如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色 你選：白

38.你覺得友情是真心的么 : 现实点很少，跟你好的又怎样？那不代表些什么

但我还是相信在我身边的都是真心的^^[除了一些]

39.你身高多少: 155cm [我们陈家最矮的,TT]

40.你的学校 : TaylorsCollege

41.如果你的女朋友比你高/你的男朋友比你矮，你能接受吗？: 哈哈。。到目前没有，也不可能有。

42.现在想干嘛?: 睡觉。。超累的>_<

43. 喜欢做的事情 : 发呆，打球，跳舞，看戏，看漫画，听歌。。。。。写不完

E~~~~

Selected list *

*Vera

*Nicx

............

coz your blog gonna full of spider web de XD

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Short post

I feel happy

coz I have u

I know I'm weak

I know I'm not mature

yet I'm luck to have you

you always cheer me up

bring me laughter

and I just hope this will never end

maybe I'm jealous

maybe I'm lonely

but noting really matters anymore

I have been released because of you

I'll learnt to be more mature

I'll learnt to grow up

and to be strong

I learnt from my mistake

I know what I should do and I have to do

and I'll get rid of the emo side of me

now just hope my exam pass faster

I'll beat you down

even I can't for this time

I'll be sure for the next one

I won't let you spoilt my life

I miss you guys badly

* CISI * MAGGIE * VERA * ASHLEY

* DEAN * EN *

and the most important want

SOO JIA YONG and my family of cause

14 days left

haha

going back to study de

I'll beat you down

ps./ even though you didn't give up

yet its different when u are in different situation

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