No idea at all

What is in my mind?I dun even dare to walk out that step..Why am I being sad for days?

I can't make everything clear..I dunno what's in my mind..I dunno why am I so down for days..I dunno why am I crying for days after listen to song or after watching movie..

I dunno its just me or what?why are you giving me this kind of respond?I felt am annoying for you..I felt I'm noting..I...just dunno what is it...

Drinking use to be very enjoyable for me..but today..i just wanna have a good sleep after drinking..

candles and chocolate no longer sweet anymore..even color doesn't colorful..doesn't bring joy..

ok..am dizzy now..guess that its time to take nap..haha

ps./ I love you

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Too free

Addicted to korean drama recently..A drama called "yuan lai shi mai nan"..

I found out something weird..dunno its just me or what?why seeing the same drama but will have different reaction and the differences is like so damn big???

Me and my roommates watch each episode per day..and every time whenever we are watching is like so damn quite except for the talking part from the drama..and recently my housemate after seeing us watched that, they started to watch as well..their reaction are totally different..they keep screaming and yelling and stay up till 4++ and go for class next day just to watch that drama..@@..keep on saying who's handsome and bla bla bla..Its not like the actor not handsome..but why we dun have the same reaction like the one they are having de?

we actually discuss about that and thought we are too old for that...hmm..for the second thought..non of this ever happened before in our whole life..haha..maybe we are abnormal..XD..that was the conclusion..haha..

Putting on weight recently..>_<..NO!!!!need to work on it..but recently very easy to get hungry leh..and I had a lot of ice-cream..@@..[there is 2 more left in the freeze]OMG!!!need to go exercise de..fat oil shu~~~~go away..keep ur distance from me..I still wanna wear my nice nice dress and clothes..I wanna wear my skinny and feel comfort with my comfort..XD

Life can't be any better than before..I'm happy even sometimes all the pass keep flashing on my mind..even I'm in the same class as she does..I doesn't need to change to fit in..doesn't need to do other ppl stuff..=)

noting to do..=p

ps./can I?

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March 14-White Day

White Day is a holiday celebrated on March 14, one month after Valentine's Day. In Japan this day is a widespread holiday, much like Valentine's Day. It is also observed in South Korea and Taiwan.

In Japan, Valentine's Day is observed by females who present chocolate gifts, usually to a male, as an expression of love. The handmade chocolate is usually preferred by the receiver, because it is a sign that the receiving male is the girl's "only one".

On White Day, the converse happens: males who received a honmei-choco (本命チョコ^?, "chocolate of love") or giri-choco (義理チョコ^?, "courtesy chocolate") on Valentine's Day are expected to return the favor by giving gifts, usually more expensive. Traditionally, popular White Day gifts are cookies, jewellery, white chocolate, white lingerie and marshmallows.^[2] Sometimes the term sanbai gaeshi (三倍返し^?, literally, "thrice the return") is used to describe the generally recited rule that the return gift should be two to three times the cost of the Valentine's gift..

March 14

ps../ Won't expect much yet still looking forward

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笨蛋爱上了笨蛋

最近你总是爱对我撒娇，让我觉得我对你也重要

对！我就是那么笨，那么天真

不管是友情还是爱情都老是被耍

第一次的“我爱你”也是我逼你的

你不曾说过你爱我，那天也是你要我先说

第一次的情人节你应该什么都不做，我只送了一张卡是我没心意

你知道我花了多少时间，多少心思吗？被骂，迟到，翘课就是因为你这张卡可你一句谢谢也没说

收到了也没告诉我。那本书我也想过，我只是想在我们一年时才给你罢了嘛

我像猪，像猩猩，人家可以很可爱，很好看

你知道我有多么期望在fb留讯息的是你吗？吃那么大会想去洗脸，学化妆也只是因为想被你疼多一点，觉得自己漂亮（我知道我不是）

跟我拍照总是烦的，跟别人拍都无所谓

最喜欢拍照，最想让照片成为永远都忘不掉的回忆，可你只想让你跟别人的回忆磨灭我

每天只睡了四到六小时是我活该

因为时差每天拖到那么迟睡也是想等你有空跟我发发简讯（虽然每次到最后都只会发到一两封）

每天等你讯息是我笨

就算自己再怎么累，你没空，忘了带电话还是等你等到你回简讯。自己也不敢发太多，怕你觉得我烦

对！我就是那么笨！可是我就是爱你。

我爱上了一个笨蛋，爱上了个木头

很多东西不是我没说，你不听你的事。将来是你的不是我的。你觉得你很满意现在的生活，觉得还不需要想想自己的将来那你就继续玩吧。。。

"If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they had never ask you to" but you had broke my heart once..

ps./ Life moves on

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Sudden feel

Suddenly I'm affair to love..

The pass flash through my mind..and the insecure feeling come back to me..

You didn't reply my msg..You didn't tell me what's really going on yesterday..

Have been asking and telling myself these days whenever I'm angry,

"Did I did the same thing as you do? "

The answer was always yes and my anger disappear just like that..

Even every time I care or I'm angry..when I know you are ok I'll be happy and noting as well

Hmm..I dunno what's wrong with me..I know you care..I feel your love..but when I recall back just now..I was scare..

Scare this is just a dream?a lie?or I just scare one day I'll loose everything wonderful that I'm having now?and I start to think that everything might just be a lie..

I'm scare to trust..I'm so grieved..

Then I come to think about Angel this few days..I know I'm just lying to myself..I know I still care a lot about her and that's the reason why I'm hating her so much for now..But last time I wasn't wearing a mask in front of her when I'm with her even thought I thought I was but this few days when I look by the pix..I wasn't just trying to fit in and change myself..but I was happy as well [even I'm happier for now]..Just wanna say thank you..yet you have choose this path..so please be responsible for it..

Had a chat with Carmen in msn..it seems like she's having some problems with her bf..

Compare to her..I'm very lucky and happy..even thought you are a tree..XD..but I'm glade that it was you who appear in my life..

Anyway, hope everything goes well to her..

ps./ Can't take you off my mind

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Chinese New Year 2010

Yesterday was reunion...Went for breakfast with Zi Ying and Nan in the morning..Yup..I had breakfast for this 2 weeks de saturday..hahaha..but I enjoy my day even though I want my bed so badly..XD

my hot chocolate and scramble egg

We then went market and supermarket to add stock..and since Lina invited us to her house to have dinner, we decide to buy something instate of "liong shou jiu"[means empty hand in hk]..haha..and guess what we bought?....tada~~~

haha..I know..I know..where got ppl give chocolate when go visit ppl want?but its also valentine so we decide to buy chocolate for aunty and uncle..haha..and even the love also made by chocolate de oh..^^..

Me and Zi Ying meet up with Nan again at 5 and took train to find Lina..haha..This time I'm the one who bring them there..see..see..I so geng know how to take train myself..XD [Actually I very scare to take train and I prefer small place like Penang..so I won't get lost..haha] and Lina come fetch us from the station after that..When I was in the train..I heard one old lady taking "chao zhou"..It reminds me of my grandparents and the language that I use to heard everyday when I was small..Felt sad suddenly..I miss my family..but I can't do anything at all..feel like talking with that old lady..but in the end I didn't..

This is the second time I come to Lina's house but the feeling is totally different..Its not like first time that quite..Her whole family were in the kitchen busy preparing food except for Lina and her dad..felt bad for not helping but I think don't help is considering helping already..haha..so me, Zi Ying, Nan, Mike and Lina just sit in the living room chatting and fooling around..and take pix with Shadow until its time for dinner..

shadow give me his palm

he just won't stop doing me

see how childish Mike is

After dinner all of us when Crown..WoO~everyone was so desperate and excited but as for me..this is not my first time to casino..so I was excited then felt board..haha..but enjoy the feeling when we are separated into 3 cars to go to the same destination..haha..this is my first time sitting in the car and enjoying the time in Australia with joy and laugher..Wilson, Lina's second bro is the one who do all the talking..and make us feel comfort..^^

Wondering around in the casino for at least an hour I guess?Lina keep asking me to play and I feel like playing as well..but..haha..better not..even if I play the small one I can't afford to loss any $$$..haha..so me and Zi Ying just go outside to have a walk and look around since this is the first time Zi Ying came here..We meet up with Lina they all after Nan call us..but..the casino is too big..we get lost and have no idea where are they..lucky we met Wilson and he call Lina and bring us to find them..haha..5 of us then went for desert..

the cake is so B.I.G

the girls^^

♥the lovely couple♥

chocolate cheese * strawberry cheese and strawberry vallina

OMG~~~I keep eating the whole day non stop..pity my stomach..dun have time to rest at all..haha..was so exhausted after the whole day activity without any rest..but happy and enjoy myself..last but not least..Happy New Year and Happy Valentine to all..=)

ps./ I know you better than anyone so I won't expect anything

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Selected

Will update reunion day in this few days...am very exhausted~~~ now..after the whole day outing without any rest..and today post will be....

坐上幸福热气球，开始咯~

❤幸福热气球：第一阶段❤

1. 绰号： 阿。。。阿怡？（不是很清楚）

2. 星座： 天蝎

3. 生日： 11月21日

4. 兴趣： 上网。。发呆。。跳舞。。打球。。睡觉

5. 血型： O

6. 最宝贵的东西： 感情

7. 最讨厌的东西： 给了人家机会却不懂得珍惜反而无视的踩在脚下

❤幸福热气球：第二阶段❤

1. 有喜欢的人吗： 有

2. 有交往吗： 嗯

3. 幸福吗： 是的

4. 他很爱你吗： 应该吧？因为他很大男人什么都不会show出来的

5. 如果你有勇气最想做什么： 结婚生子（哈哈）

❤幸福热气球：第三阶段❤

1. 你被谁点： ah boii

2. 他是你的谁： friend

3. 他的个性是： 不是很清楚，应该是开朗活泼的吧？

4. 他长得怎样： 有鼻子，嘴巴，眼睛，耳朵的咯

5. 跟他认识多久了： 应该算是8个多月9个月吗？

6. 你想跟他说什么： 加油！不嫌弃就有事都可以找我的^^

7. 如果他变成你的情人： 酱咯

❤幸福热气球：第四阶段❤

1. 最爱的音乐：只要好听都喜欢，除了华语歌

2. 最爱的季节：夏~夏~夏~

3. 最爱的颜色：紫，橙，百，青？哈哈。。都喜欢啦

4. 最想去的国家：除了中国

5. 最爱的水果：超爱水果所以都喜欢

6. 最爱的饮料：跑不掉的~可乐~~~[可最近喝了都会肚子痛]

7. 最爱的人：♥ 苏家勇 ♥

❤幸福热气球：第五阶段❤

1. 你很爱哭吗： 不喜欢，但很多时候都忍不住

2. 你很爱笑吗： 还好

3. 你是很有自信的人吗： 沒有

4. 你想要怎样的生活：什么都不用担心的发呆

5. 你喜欢自己吗： 还好

6. 你喜欢音乐吗： No Music No Life

7. 你喜欢体育吗： 超爱

8. 你喜欢跳舞吗： 超爱

9. 你很专情吗： 不知道

10. 你喜欢睡觉吗： 不开心都会睡觉

11. 你喜欢唱歌吗： ok咯

ps./ Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Valentine's Day

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Short post

Wondering around doing noting..Just hope that my mind can stop thinking so I decide to go to bed early today..but..haha..I think even I'm laying on there for hours, I still won't get to sleep..

Too bad to said that I have a test tomorrow and I didn't study at all..skip jor 2 long classes but didn't follow up the lesson that I have left behind yet..didn't catch up with my Math A and starting to get lost in my Math B..

It has been the 3 weeks..not very long..but..haha..I think I did noting at all but I dunno where my time go..

I sleep less then others..study less than others..but I think I spend a lot of time online and day dreaming more than others..XD..haiz

When I was laying on the bed..soemthing nice pop out from my mind..

"The Journal" that I was thinking of making one myself, makes me think back our past..and it brings up my smile..but after that I look back at my phone..I felt lonely..=,(

You ask me before why I have to cry when I miss you?Why can't I be happy when missing you?

Hmm..Maybe I didn't and can't see you for AGES~~~~XD

Wonders when my card will arrive..

ps./ Felt better after blogging..=)

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Opposite Wednesday

Today is not really my day..Thought I could be more relax since today is Wednesday but it seems to be not..Went to print pix which I'm using it for my Valentine's Day card..but I notice there's no sure thing as 2R here and I have to wash 3R size pix..haiz..and almost late for class..coz I went before class..

When to collect the pix after class..lucky today has longer lesson..so I didn't wait long to get they pix..On the way back I know it would take time to finish it up by today coz it wasn't going smooth according to the plan..and when my way back..I felt dizzy and started to see more buttons in the life..=.=..what I can say?The weather is driving me crazy..I'm always hetty even I drink a lot of water(but ulcer getting better)..

Decide to skip one class so that I can finish the card..but in the end I skip two..=.=..but I still didn't get to sleep well or rest early..TT
Going to have acc test on friday, need to do research on report and made a summary by friday,having math B test on tuesday and CSC and math A on thursday..my pity new year..doesn't have a break at all..

I'm not really in the mood today except for making card of coz..A stupid lady shout at me when I went to the post shop to post my card for the second time..and I have to teach Simon CSC..haiz..whole day long..but thanks to Vera and Lina and also Simon..my day gets much more better..but I still feel like blogging..haha..to say out everything and to make myself feels better..
My bb is kinda busy these days but his msg makes me warm and dun feel like being upset or having a bad mood..but hope he's taking care of himself as well..^^

When its done..What a mess?

To the one I LOVE

part of it^^

Hope Jacyline will be ok when she's in Aus..I know how she feels and I know it will be tough for her..If you are reading this..Just find me whenever you need someone k?even though we are not that close..but at least we are still in Aus..^^..[my aus hp num-0422442358]

ps./ I won't let it go just that easy..you made the choice and I'll let you regret on doing this decision..just wait and see

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Sunday

Woo~its so not me..sunday waking up in this kind of time?XD..yup..woke up at 9 something to prepare myself for the outing with my girls..hehe..

Lina texted me to inform us that she'll be late and was hang around on facebook and plurk to spend my time..after that me and Zi Ying reach "old place" on time as well as Lina..Nan come after but hmm..one more..where's Fiona???=.="..she always late..but today she was late for 30 minutes.."Fiona!!!We gonna leave you behind if you are late next time!"..haha..

All of us were starving and went to desert house for lunch..after that we went bourke street to shop and digest our lunch..bought one pair of heel in Emporio..dun really remember that the heel I bought izit the one I saw before I went back to Pg and wanted it badly when I was in Pg(Lina said it the same one)..but the heel I saw before cost AUD180 and guess what?the one I bought cost me AUD70!!!!

OMG!!!Its just 2 month plus nearly 3 months..This is damn crazy!!!!but I didn't get to have the brown or even gold one coz it left size 10..sob sob..but the black one is also nice..so I bought the black one..hehe..

wondering around

the girls

We then went to Max B***** for CHOCOLATE..one of our favorite shop..^^..

the best waffle ♥ it most^^

dip

cold chocolate

hot dark choco

It was so full and satisfied after all the eating and chatting..XD..we then went to buy boxes coz Lina's going to make her dear Mike Valentine's present..^^..feb 14th is around the corner..haiz..first year valentine's not going to be with him kinda sad but..haha..maybe its also a good thing I guess?ok..back to topic..It was 5 and all the shop are closing so we have no place to go anymore and decide to go to Nan's apartment..chat and chat and chat..kinda tired and sleepy..XD

went back around 6.30pm coz someone is finally free..since I came back till now..I'm the one who calling him..he didn't even ask me to call him at all..=.=..but maybe because last night..I felt so worm and nice and hope to hear his voice much more longer..but..piggy not enough sleep and my hp low batt so..ciao..=)

One of my ex-classmate actually finds me in msn just now and said there is something very urgent that he needs my help..I was very curious and asked him what happened?then he just ask "breast for 32A is how many cm?"=.="..but in the end he told me that he wanna buy a dress for her gf and ask me weather its suitable for her or not?how lovely he is..haha..he bought her a necklet and ear ring from po kong..and a dress for her..he said he just want her to be happy..=)..what can I say?haha..*Simon and Hui Ling I hope you guys will be happy forever and always that sweet^^ *

I hope I will get something from him also..but I know I won't..haha..so just forget about it..maybe I'll be lucky to get something in my dream..=p

ok la..I was just joking..anyway..wish all of you happy cyn and had a sweet valentine's..^_<

ps./ Agian..Its monday

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Nice Saturday

I wasn't in the mood last night and drink a bottle of bacardi..I dunno what's in my mind..just drink it like fruit juice even though I was a bit sick..feel like shouting..or just a release...when to bed after that without saying a word..rolling on the bed for 13 hours..yet..still felt tired..

Went breakfast with Zi Ying(my new roommate) at 10.30 this morning..had a very long chat but the place we sit is so damn cold we just leave after one and a half hours..went to the shop beside[party shop] to have a look..there a lot of stuff for party and the balloons are also very beautiful..=p..and the things there wasn't that expensive also..then we went to the market and bought a lot of stuff..happy that finally there is someone to share the food..We then went to a few book stores, asian supermarket and QV..

While talking with Zi Ying..she reminds me of something..

Lynn was my friend and I screw up everything just because I think what is better for her..Angel was my friend that I won't think we'll be that close and end up strangers now..I treat ppl good doesn't mean they will be the same..yet I'm glade that I had a lot of true friends that appreciate me and I LOVE THEM ALL..

ps./ Do you know that I'm waiting for you every night just for you to have some time with me?But I guess you'll never know that..Going to move on even its going to futher us apart

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Because I'm A Girl

Listen to the same song everyday but it wasn't that much feeling..yet every time whenever I see the video..I just can't stop my tears..

*Because I'm a Girl*

Sometimes things will happened without you noticing it..you won't know what will happened in the next second..but every time ppl will only value once they loose it..this is so call "Human Nature"..

I keep asking myself..should I follow my heart?Or should I just follow my mind?But thing won't be perfect after all..Life is about give and take..no matter how perfect you are you'll always be imperfect..

ps./ Following my heart

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sleepless nights

Notice that I can't sleep after I came here if I'm not tired enough..guess I had been working hard for the first few days before college started..haha..

Things changed..I'm not use to be the same old me anymore..I dunno why..

But I had been drinking everyday just like drinking water [actually one day one bottle nia la..dunno when will get diabetes ==]

I wanna sleep la..ARG!!!!WTF!!!Everyday like this how am I going to concentrate on study and do well wor?haiz..

I'm sorry..I said horrible things..I didn't meant to..but I really feel that way..Its just that..I'm actually too childish..noting really happened but I just find problem to make myself sad..

Dear, I'm sorry..=( [I know you can't see it also but..haiz..]

I hope I just can be stronger and not being ur burden anymore..

Had my student ID back within 3 hours after I had paid for 20 bucks to get a new want..haiz..RM60++ fly away liao lo..everytime so careless..very good lo..=.=

Anyway..going to check for the flight ticket tomorrow..the sooner I get the lesser I will be spending..I know you think birthday isn't any special day..but I hope I can make up something special this year.. [will be creaking my head @@]

ps./Just pretending doesn't really help anything

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